I have decided to start blogging again. It has been a few years and a lot has happened. I am so full of emotion and crazy ideas I need to get them down. I am currently 34 weeks pregnant with a miracle and I still can't wrap my brain around it. I look in the mirror at my body in disbelief, yet when I feel my baby move I am full of wonder and amazement. I want to share my life and all the blessings and crazy that I have been blessed with. I feel like that someday I will write a book about it, but until then blogging is a platform I will try and use.
Like I said I am pregnant. After 13 years of trying and dying we finally did it. It was a seriously unbelievable journey with loss that was hard, but looking back things had to happen before our baby came to us. They always say, "hindsight is 20/20." I have found myself so full of emotion and many of them are conflicting. I am so grateful, happy and in a state of wonder. At the same time I am fearful, in denial and I can't believe this is happening. With all this add the pregnancy hormones and I am a basket case. I have an ultrasound pic of my baby on my phone and I burst into tears every time I see it. My heart is ready to burst especially when I feel and see her move. She is amazing, unreal, miracle, out of reach, and so close. I am terrified and excited. I am seriously a mess and I love it!